Sunday Morning Vibes

I dont know if it's the medication... or some other thing which has taken over... but lately i havent really been in the mood to get out of bed. I am wondering what i can do to break through this type of depression and move towards being motivated and happy again. Im not saying that im unable to function... what i am saying is that for the past few months my mind has revolved around how i am going to accomplish everything that i want to accomplish... and typically at the end of the day the todo pile looks just the same as it did when i woke up in the morning.

I am getting to the point where i am questioning a lot of things about my current mental health. I know that by abstaining from alcohol i feel better... the paranoid feelings dont hit as hard and i am 10 times more likely to remember to take my pills every morning and night provided i dont drink alcohol. On days where i miss my morning or evening pills i find that i have mild anxiety and paranoid symptoms for a few days after missing them. I think its the placebo effect because realistically the levels of respirdone in my system dont drop that rapidly... unless its similar to the nicotine from a cigarette and the withdrawal symptoms start taking hold over a matter of hours... rather than days or weeks.

In other news... i have a doctors appointment scheduled for the 22nd to discuss my medication and possible alternatives.

Thats all for today...

T.A. Michaels

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