A lot of planning...

 So, seeing as I'm now out of work again I figure my current system isn't working. If i want to be successful in business and in life, then i need to get my basics down. Recently, I've started making sheets on excel to track what I'm doing everyday. they range everything from Diet and exercise to mood and symptoms. If i don't start tracking this stuff then I'm never going to make progress. While it's easy to put these items into practice using 1000s of apps... i found that just writing it all down on a few excel spreadsheets and tracking it by hand several times a day is a lot easier to remember. And it gets me off my phone. Lately I've be "Doom Scrolling" without any real purpose and what ends up happening is eventually the AI algorithm starts showing me videos of people dying in car crashes. Not exactly what makes me happy ya know. So I've got my lists and that's what I'll be working on for the foreseeable future while i attempt to pick of the pieces of a broken year. 2025 has been hard. And while i may have maintained an optimistic mask that people either loved or hated... it hid sadness that ultimately made me question if surviving my suicide attempt back in 2008 was really the best thing for my family and the world at large. Crazy to think right.... Lived 17 years and finally called it quits due to mental and physical illness? I'm hoping this year improves with a bright spot towards the end with me either finding lasting work... or just getting enough money that i don't have to worry about the household expenses and the bills.

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