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All has changed...

 Over the last few months I haven't been much like myself. Considering that we are two months into summer... and I've agreed to give up my convertible.... It seems like I'm not going in the direction that I wanted to head in. But to be honest it's probably the direction when I'm thinking short vs long term goals. 

I recently spoke with my uncle who indicated that short term investing and goals are between 1 and 5 years... Where as long term investing is between 5 and 20+ years. While i would say that over the last 15 years or so, I have mainly been looking to invest in Short term goals... With me getting married in 3 months, it's time for me to start looking at longer term goals. Mainly because I don't want to half ass a new life that I will be starting with my soon to be wife.

To the American teenager... a car is that first ounce of freedom. And the nicer the car... the better freedom looks like. But I'm not an American teenager anymore. I'm a grown adult in my prime. My interest have changed over the years. Not for the better I might add. Things that once brought me pleasure have been dulled out. While this is often indicative of a mid-life crisis.... (Which that might be exactly what I'm going through)…. I'd rather take the time and effort to start enjoying life again.

Getting an awe inspiring PS5.... something i had been excited for since they first announced the system... And realizing that I don't have as much interesting in actually playing it as I originally expected... is rather sad. 

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