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Broken Sleep

Last night was a little rough. I got a terrible nights sleep. For some reason after I took my pills my heart started racing. I'm not sure why but it took me a couple of hours to settle down and finally fall asleep. The dream I had was extremely vivid. I was cussing out a friend of mine at a car dealership. He was trying to explain every reason to the salesmen why they shouldn't sell the car to me and I got in a fight with him about how my life is compared to him. After about an hour or so of dreaming I woke up and used the bathroom and couldn't fall back to sleep until around 7am. I slept on and off until about noon today.

I find with the medication I have extremely vivid dreams. It can make it difficult to snap out of them and return back to normal life when I wake up. With that said, I also understand the importance of sleep on a daily basis. I should be getting between 7 and 9 hours every day of uninterrupted sleep. I find that my finally thoughts before bed usually have no impact on what I'm dreaming about... but my final thoughts before bed will determine if I pass right out or if I end up taking a while. Last night I was thinking about what if something happened to my girlfriend. That if someone wanted to hurt me they would use her in order to do it. It wasn't very pleasant and damn near caused my fight or flight to kick in which I think is why it took so long for me to fall asleep in the first place.

I'm not sure how I am going to be today. Something tells me today is going to be an off day. But it's early enough that I think I can turn it around if I want to.

That's all for now,

-T.A. Michaels

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