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A Casual Switch

 I'm not really sure what to write... But I want to get into the habit of Writing once a week on Sunday Mornings. Katie is currently at work. She had me run some errands for her this morning. It's about 12:32pm now... and I'm kinda putting off laundry. I have tomorrow off... So there is no immediate rush to get it done, however the issue is that I need clean clothes for when I return to the office on Tuesday. The work from home policy has changed now that the Covid Wave in Rhode Island has been reduced greatly. I think that's because Nearly the whole state caught it... regardless of Vaccination status. I'm vaxxed and Boosted and I still managed to get it. 

Katie wants to me try Cigarette alternatives such as Snus. I figure its a step in the right direction. I wont die of lung cancer... And if I play my cards right I can slowly ween down on the pouches until I don't need them. I would say I should be nicotine free by the end of March. Speaking of the end of march, that's my goal date for completing the MD-100. I figure with me returning to the office, I should be more focused and better able to reach my Metrics. Then its just a matter of getting the Certifications and i should be in the running for a promotion. I know that I am going to have first day stress when I return on Tuesday... I am just hoping that I don't have any major episodes as a result of returning back to the office. I've worked on Upping my medication to counteract any lasting side effects. So I feel that I should be safe to return to work without any major anxiety issues. 

Katie and I have a couple of concerts lined up this year. We are going to See Hanson in NH, Slipknot in PA, and Deftones in Boston. I'm looking forward to it because we really haven't gone anywhere for a while. I think our last trip was in the summer of last year and we headed to New York. I'm saving the majority of my Vacation time for the Honeymoon. I figure if i have any time left over at the end of the year, I'll carry it over into next year so we can do something fun in the spring. 

The friendship with Brian ended. We met up at the Bar and then went back to his house. His Wife cooked steaks but he honestly offended me quite a bit by his reactions. Here's a guy I've known for ten years and he basically told me that if it wasn't for me making the effort every few months.... Then we wouldn't know each other anymore. So... if that's his reaction to it... Then I don't see why I'm going to put in the effort. "Every two years by accident" was his exact quote. So After going through several of the stages of loss (Loss of a friendship), I have accepted that we really are not friends... so I'm going to stop making the effort. I doubt I'll ever hear from him again, But if I do then it is what it is. I'll deal with it then. 

I Bought a webcam. I want to start a YouTube Video Series called AMT Philosophy... and basically have it be a random video series about varies philosophies I've read about or Things that I've come up with on my own over the past 20 years. 

With all that said, Like I said, I'm not really sure what to write. But I think out of therapeutic reasons I am going to try and make this a weekly thing. I figure Sunday mornings would be best as Katie works on Sundays. I'll try to keep you updated on Three Main things - New Events - Health Updates - and Future goals. 

Have a good week,
T.A. Michaels

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