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The Serenity Prayer

A lot of my issue right now is dealing with things that are outside of my control but ultimately will have an impact on my life. Right now it's sort of a waiting game to see what the future holds and while i'm cautiously optimistic it's hard for me to not have a general sense of restlessness as a result of not knowing the future. What's the next step? I don't know yet and it's hard for me to determine where i should be directing my energy. I know that i need to start getting more physically active... but it seems like the "April Showers" has come in way earlier than anticipated as the last 7 out of 11 days have been grey / Cloudy or just straight up rain. It makes getting outdoors impossible. Also, due to corona the state has shut down all state and federal parks so its a bit annoying that the only place that i'll be able to go walking is either downtown among the tall buildings... or around the neighborhood.

I lost a pound though. My weight is now down to 234.6 as of yesterday morning. Three months ago i was at 219... its a bit of a change to go up nearly 15 pounds. Weight management is going to become my top priority throughout April. I want to get below 230lbs by the end of the month. which is on average a pound a week.

That's all for now,

-T.A. Michaels

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