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Broken Dreams

I had a rather shitty nights sleep last night. I don't think I got to sleep until after 3:00am... and I kept waking up every hour. Each time I woke up I remembered having a very vivid dream. One dream I had was about my girlfriend getting married to someone other than me. Another dream I had was about my old place of employment hiring me back on full time and giving me a second chance. Another dream I had was about being in an office building which was about to collapse. I'm the type of guy that looks into dreams. Hoping they can provide some meaning... I've heard before that dreams are ones way of processing information and can result from hidden insecurities. I think that the dreams I had last night were trying to tell me something but what I have no idea. There was a time period where I went years without dreaming. Then when I did have a dream I would get so hung up on it that to this day... some of the dreams I had 12 years ago are still in my head. 

In other news... its Sunday. I have one cigarette left.... I'm low on food. I need to go get some milk and butter so that way I have something to eat for the week. I'm figuring I'm going to be living on a diet of Mac and Cheese and Hotdogs for a while. I've made a budget for myself and to be honest it doesn't look all that promising. The best thing I can do is stick to the plan I've made for myself and go from there. Its going to be fairly comfortable here today weather wise. only 72 which is better than the 85-90 it had been all week. I got 10 days until pay day... and I should end this pay period with a little bit of a surplus. As long as I can end each month with money in my pocket I think i'm doing well. It will help to establish a foundation for savings. 

I am going to be applying for student loans in the next few days. I had applied at the local community college and I think I was accepted so I want to make sure I can get enrolled for the fall semester. 

that's all for today,

-T.A. Michaels

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