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Strange days

Its interesting right. I dont know if its that i moved into the wrong part of town... or if the town changed because i moved in. Everything i've been seeing about my section of the city doesnt at all seem sustainable. Really. If this is how things have always have been... How has it been allowed to go on for so long. Fireworks until 2 in the morning... Parties every night. Loud music every day. I dont get it. Is it that these people dont work therefor dont care? Or is it that no one is enforcing the laws in the area. That leads me to think that we are in total anarchy. I wonder if its like this in every major city. Where the citizens of the streets dictate how everything goes. I question if moving down the street by a quarter mile would have any impact on my quality of life. I question how everyone gets a long and there isnt massive riots in the street. personally im a bit fed up with it all. I cant stand the constant noise. First off i have a hard time determining if its real or now. Are the neighbors really talking about me? or is it just paranoid delusions that are going on in my head? They come and go and lately they havent been as bad... but it seems like there are a few that are spying on us... or at the very least dont give a shit about anything or anyone other than themselves.

The cats are a bit of trouble these days. They are about 12 weeks old now and growing every day. They have wayyy to much energy for me and getting to sleep at night isnt all that great. We had been putting them in a pen for the night but a couple of nights ago one got sick so im waiting for now to see if they are better. The pen is a good idea... its just tough because if they do get sick its a terrible mess.

thats all for now,

-T.A. Michaels

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