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Symptom Update.

Over the past few days my symptoms have been unusual. What I once thought was background noise reacting to my thoughts... now appears to be actual people reacting to my thoughts. When I am having chaotic thoughts there are people around which are just out of sight at the time they are speaking... but they are responding to the conversations me and my roommates are having as well as responding to my thoughts. 

The most intrusive of these thoughts is when I hear someone who is far away (for instance my sister) chime in. It's hard to determine if there is some psychic link which is teaming up our brains... or if its an auditory hallucination which is causing the noises. It becomes disruptive most because it distracts me away from the present. Almost as if my narrative is attempting to say something along the JC/AC Path which is entirely unrealistic. I blame Christianity for ever putting that book in the damn bible. 

At present... I am still trying to get into a good routine. I've managed to take my morning pills successfully for the past several days... and I haven't missed any of my night pills in the last week (I think). Today I took a shower and brushed my teeth... It may have taken me a while to get these things done considering when I woke up... but at the very least I got them done. Life with the roommate has been an adjustment. It's only been 5 days so far that he's been living here... but its better than my previous living situation (I Hope). Money is super tight right now. I am hoping that next month will be a little easier. The biggest expenses that I have to cut out are cigarettes and fast food. I haven't spent a lot on it since I was paid on the 20th... but now that I am near 15 days since a check I am starting to feel a pinch. I have just about enough money for Food and Gas until the 17th when I get paid again. It's definitely an adjustment vs when I was making 1800 every two weeks at my previous job. I am hoping that if nothing else... this teaches me to better manage my money. 

I am going to be trying to pick a stock every month... something under 10 a share... that I can by 10 shares of and sit on while I live here. I figure it will be helpful for me to do because it means that when I do finally move out of this apartment... and move in with my girlfriend a year from now... that i'll have the ability to cash in my investments and have first and security for a new place. I realize that investing up to $100 a month will take away from the bottom line each month... but what I figure is that its going to be helpful in getting me a bit of savings established. 

In other news... I bought some Microsoft Azure training courses. When I am healthy enough and stable enough to return to the workforce I want to be a cloud engineer. They have a good starting pay and I figure the cloud isn't going anywhere anytime soon. So its worth while to learn the technology of tomorrow today. I bought 5 courses which cost me around $120 dollars... I started the first training course already... and I am hoping that I can move forward onto the certificate within 2 months. I figure that's a good goal for me right now. 

That's all for today,

-T.A. Michaels

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