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Priorities.

 I have a plan... Take half of the money that i put towards savings each month... and put it towards paying off a bill. I'm coming to realize that the only way that i am going to free up additional money for savings... is by using my money for savings to pay off my debt faster. If I do this for one year... then at the end of the year I'll have paid off an additional $2400 in debt. In thinking about long term savings goals... if i can get to a place where my debt is gone in 2 years... and I don't accrue any new debt... then over the course of five years I'll have saved almost of a full years salary. It seems tough now... but honestly its where i want to be 7 years from now. Debt free.. ready for the next stage of life with my wife... with money in the bank... and onward to the next adventure. 

I'm attempting to quit smoking again. My boss is out of work for the next week. Then I'm going on vacation next weekend so think that without his influence and my own will power I'll be able to make it at least 10 days without smoking a cigarette. Then after that i would be foolish to buy one... as the habit will have been broken. Quitting smoking serves two purposes... 1.) save money. 2.) Improved health. That's the goal for the rest of August... Quit Smoking. That's the only goal. And so long as its the only goal... I'll be successful. 

In other news... my weight has remained flat. Bouncing between 263 and 260... I need to start eating better at work. I eat great at home. Nice dinner with veggies and a protein.. drink only water. Its breakfast and lunch that need to improve. I've fallen back into the habit of buying Dunkin in the morning again... not the best idea. And last week I ended up ordering out for lunch every day... Another bad idea. I should be below 260lbs. I was almost below 260lbs. I was at 260lbs... but then I screwed it up by having a heavy lunch... and a vanilla shake for desert one night. Bad food tastes so good though. this coming week... I'll get below 260lbs. I know I can... and I will. That will help spring board me to losing weight. 220 by this time next year... 200 by my wedding. 

I need to add more exercise... be more like my fiancé and add some type of activity I can do in the house. Still got to get my shoulder checked out... so I'm a little limited. But anything will help. Increased my step goal to 15,000 steps. Not sure how I'm going to fit in 7 miles of walking each day... But it will be great once I actually reach it. I'm inspired by my fiancé's progress... I can already see the difference. Now I want to be that same inspiration.

My boss has a way of tearing down my self confidence. It seems like each week he has something new to say which rips me down lower than I was the week before. Fuck em. He may win these battles... but when I walk away from him I'll have won the war.

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