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Zeds Dead Kinda Night

So... I've been rather Obsessed with Zeds Dead since seeing them in Boston a couple of months ago. I'm not sure why. They are an extremely good EDM group. And I think it might be the fact that the music is good... but i've been finding myself listening to them very often. While Katie has already moved on to other music... I haven't yet found something that peaks my interest. Maybe soon I'll hear something that I end up obsessing over for a few months.

Today was rough. Aside from the fact that I'm sun burnt to the point of laughing at myself... The work day was... different. I'm trying to pin it all on the new medication that I'm on. Incase I didn't mention it sooner, I am now on a non stimulate ADHD medication which appears to be working quite well. My day flew by for the most part. However, my boss was finding it odd. As he said I seemed "muted" today. Really I was dealing with the fact that every inch of my skin was stinging anytime I moved. And additionally i was focused on my job. I may not have closed 100 tickets... but what I did do felt like an accomplishment. If the new medication means I keep my head down and get my job done... I'm certainly all for it... Rather than hitting 2pm and not having any direction on how to accomplish my tasks. I'm finding that when I'm hitting a wall, rather than getting frustrating and giving up for the day... I'm putting forth extra effort towards accomplishing the task at hand.

The last hour or so of the work day was a bit frustrating. I wont get into specifics... but the task could have been dealt with easier or by another person entirely. One thing i'm running into is that i need to realize that "i have 20 years of experience" but these 25 years dont. Even if they went to college and got a degree... some of the common sense stuff that i've dealt with over the years may not click for them. Additionally.. i am not their manager so i don't know what type of metrics they are being held up to. It might explain the sudden influx of issues coming over to my department. If they are on some sort of time constrain to get it solved... or out of their area... that would make sense. 

Our financial picture is looking a bit better. I've tried my best to limit spending to less than $20 dollars a day. It's less as of right now. The most i'm spending my money on is two cups of coffee... and a sandwich. That will get cut down more though because i'm planning on bringing a coffee cup into work with me so that I wont have to buy coffee in the morning. Then i'll have as an expense is gas once a week. The less we can spend the better. I have a goal for the checking account... and i'm hoping we can make it there in 1 year. Then at that point, i'll worry more about paying off debt. But until we reach that number... its scrimping and saving every penny that we can.

I'm getting tired... so i'm gonna head to sleep.

T.A. Michaels

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