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Hesitant...

 So... this week i am supposed to go for blood work before starting my new medication. I'm somewhat worried about the new medication because it could literally kill me in so many ways. I'd hate for my life to end simply because i couldn't go to the bathroom but that is one of the potential risks of the medication. Also... Another potential risk of the medication is that i get a cold and that kills me. It's going to require weekly blood work for the next six months... as well as weekly doctors visits to get a gauge of whether or not the medication is working. On the flip side... I've heard wonderful things in terms of Schizoaffective Disorder and the Keto diet. There's a youtuber who indicated that after three months on the Keto diet... symptoms dropped dramatically. So I'm debating on changing my diet and see if it's helpful... Or... going on the new medication. I have a doctor's appointment on Friday at 9am where i am going to make the final decision. 

Otherwise, Today has been a good day. I woke up around 10am today and my 401k Withdrawal had hit so we have enough money to get us through the month. Next month may be another story though. I've found that i need to make about $1,700 per week in order to meet the same income levels that i was making before. It's not completely unrealistic... it's just not going to be the easiest venture. I don't really have a skill that I can charge that much of an hourly rate for. For CS, I'd have to charge about $100 an hour... and have 17 hours worth of work per week. That sounds simple enough... but getting the first 10 hours booked would be tough... Then repeating the same pattern for the following weeks would prove difficult. On the flip side... Uber pays out about $25 per hour on average so i would have to work a minimum of 68 hours per week to make the same pay. Even if i maxed out Uber at the 84 hours per week that is allowed by law... It'd be about $2,100 per week before expenses. That would be a good pay... But it's definitely not sustainable over the long term. I've decided though that I don't want to go back into the IT Industry. Far to much stress over the long term and the more you know.. the more it leads to issues. I set money aside for our vacation fund and I put more money into our emergency savings. So we should be good for a while. Once Katie left for work, i went down to my uncles to pick up his carpet cleaner. I figure sometime this week or next, Katie and I are going to go through the entire house and clean everything. We've lived hear almost 3 1/2 years now so it's about time the carpets get done. Not saying they look terrible... But between the two of us and the two cats... they've seen there fair share of stains. 

Yesterday I dropped My sister and her Husband up at Logan. While i was sad to see them go... I'm happy knowing that they'll be back at the beginning of May. It's a huge risk to up and relocate so I'm actually nervous for them. I'm sure once they are here and settled in they will be fine... and it will be good to have some more family members around for a change. My sister was one of my closest friends before she relocated 16 years ago... and It will be fun hearing their stories and truly catching up with each other. Her husband is a good guy too. Down to earth. Today i am getting a spare computer ready for them as she was talking about needing one when she moves in. 

Tonight... i am either visiting my parents and getting a tattoo... visiting my parents... getting a tattoo.. or none of the above. My tattoo on my arm (which i didn't realize was a Disney villain when i got the tattoo) needs to get filled in. I had gotten the outline a few weeks back and that's all healed so all i need is the shading done. I have to stop by my parents because they said they were going to kick me a few bucks for driving my sister to the airport yesterday. Lastly (at some point this week), i have to go see a friend who recently moved into a new apartment. I have an old Smart TV that I want to give him. Also i have an old smart watch that i want to give him too. I had given him one previously but it got smashed (not sure how)... so i figure I'll give him another one. The guy was homeless for several years and while i couldn't do much to change his situation... I'm glad that it's finally improving. 

Well... I have a lot on my agenda today... so i might as well get to it.

That's all for now.

T.A. Michaels


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