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Day 4 on Chantix

 Today... was a good day. I've had 11 cigarettes overall and i'm likely going to be having one more before i go to sleep. Due to things i was thinking about through out the day today... I found the urge to smoke was slightly higher than it was yesterday. Ending the day at 11 cigarettes is still a win though. Often times on Thursday nights I end up chain smoking most of the evening and i have between 20 and 30 cigarettes. So... for me to break the habit and only have 11 (Maybe 12) is a win for me. It actually makes me think that tomorrow morning i wont be chain smoking while i'm driving around everywhere.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning. And I also have to go to a client site afterwards. It makes for a lot of time in the car and for someone who was notorious for smoking 3 cigarettes every time i drove 30 minutes... i dread the self consciousness of walking into a sterile building knowing that a smell like smoke even though i can't smell myself. My quit date is this coming Sunday (7 days after starting per instructions on the packaging). Weekends are my worst trigger So i'm doing my best to commit to lowering the count each day. If i broke that habit by todays actions then tomorrow i can begin to form new habits.

I just got done reading the chapter on Level 5 leadership in the book Good to Great. While it is a bit dated (mid-2000s i believe) and one of the companies it talks about doesn't exist anymore... It is a good book to read through for practical business lessons during a growth period within a company. I am a slow reader... but once finished it'll be a bit of education on the business world.

Side effects this evening are not noticeable. So I'm not sure if the medication has built up in my system yet or not. Next Monday i start 1mg of the medication which may cause more side effects... but i doubt they will be major. I'm debating between playing video games or reading. Either option would work to be honest. I am getting a bit tired. and it's already 8:30pm... maybe the best idea is to skip cigarette 12 and head to bed early. 

Yeah... maybe it is. 

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