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Sorry for the Missed Call

 I didn't really have a chance to write this past weekend which is why there was no post. So here is a make up post on a Wednesday. Things are actually going decent for midweek. I found I had some issues at the start of the week which I thought were going to last but luckily they faded out. I've been noticing an increase in Auditory issues and Intrusive thoughts while at work over the last few weeks and it was really starting to get the best of me. Last week my doctor had increase my Anti-Psychotic Medication by 1mg and I am finding that it has been somewhat helpful in reducing symptoms however it didn't exactly cure the problem. I struggled on Monday and Tuesday because my paranoia at work is getting the best of me. From a financial standpoint... I don't see how the business can justify as many Technicians they have hired. It makes sense for the busy season but I have seen a marked slow down in incidents over the last week or so and it makes me worry that there will be layoffs. I don't if this is just paranoia... or if its founded in science. But I want to air on the side of caution just in case I need to initiate a backup plan. I have been getting good reviews from Customers lately so I am hoping that if anything it will strengthen my case for staying. 

Other medical news includes that I am starting to experience an issue which I last dealt with all the way back in 2016. With the Weight loss and diet change that I experienced back then the issue had gone away. But it has since resurfaced. This is likely due to diet reasons which I am not thrilled about. It's one more reason that for me to change. And I am hoping that it is a catalyst for the said change which I hope to achieve. I have a reoccurring appointment on my calendar for both Gym Exercise as well as walking... However I have yet to do either one. Mind you its only been a few weeks since I added the appointments, but still the fact I haven't managed to do either is quite a bummer. I am hoping that with April quickly approaching that I can implement some "life changing" habits over the course of April that will stick with me for a while. Most notable of which is quitting smoking. I have all the tools at my disposal so I am hoping that I am able to quit once my quit date approaches. Then... if all goes well.. Everything else should just fall into place.

Financially things are still stable. I was kinda in a whole before pay day because I had gotten overcharged at the Restaurant Katie and I went to for Dinner on her birthday, But since that situation has been straightened out I'm in better shape. I don't want to say that things are awesome... because really I have a bit of work to do on my debt. But when it comes to our Master Plan I should be in a good position within a year. The trick is to not rush things... Limit unnecessary expenses... and Throw spare money at debt when I have it. 

Things between me and the other half are doing well. She wants me to refer to her as my Partner rather than Wife. I think this is somewhat progressive but once the time comes I'll do my best to comply. Speaking of which... I should be waking her up now that its 5pm. 

That's all for now

T.A. Michaels

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