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Time to Focus.

 I'm taking a computer cert tomorrow. So after this I'm going to be doing an exam prep. This will be the second time that I'm taking the exam, so at the very least I know what to expect. The first time I took the exam, I failed by about 4 questions... So I am hoping that I can pass this time. When I met with my boss a few months back, He indicated that once I pass this exam I'll get promoted. So, That's the plan. Pass the exam... Get Promoted. 

I other news... I basically lost a friend this weekend. His life is going in an opposite direction of mine... and in order for me to maintain any sort of balance I need to make positive life changes so that means less trying on my part to maintain the friendship. It had become one sided for quite a while now.. So rather than expend any more energy... I'm basically ending the friendship. I'll wait until he contacts me which could be sometime between tomorrow and never... But I'm moving on from it so I don't think or obsess about what's wrong with me. 

The last two Sunday's i spent down at my uncles doing yard work. I'm doing it as exercise. I feel that spending 5 hours doing hard labor on a Sunday is just as good as going to the gym for a half hour. Today we cleared some brush from the side of his property. Probably spent about 4 hours doing it. I know the step counter tracked about 11K steps this morning. And the lifting of branches, stumps, and rocks counted as weights. We have a bit more to clear... but with next weekend being Easter we are going to skip a week. 

I think i am going to start talking about my "Episodes" in great detail sometime soon. The reason i called them episodes is because when I was at a psychiatric hospital in the area... my medical treatments were labeled as episodes... basically every time I had been hospitalized had been counted as one. And while the time in the hospital was when it was at its worst... the days and weeks leading up to these events had special significance in why I was in there in the first place. 

That's about all I got in me today... Write more soon 

T.A. Michaels

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