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It's Just About Summer.

 A lot has changed over the last few months. I briefly had a job after returning from Disability, but i found the demands of the job were something that i wasn't capable of handling so it didn't work out. I'm still looking to return to the work force, but i don't think I'll be returning at the same level i left it. While i had been a L4 / Supervisor... I think when i return to work i want to come in at an L2 / L3. There is a lot less pressure to perform at that level and it is ultimately less risk for our household. While we need to be making a certain dollar amount each month / I feel that i can make up the difference between my other income sources. I have setup both a T-Shirt Business as well as published a book this year so its in my interest to see those two avenues flourish. I haven't been writing here as consistently as previous years. Truth is I'm spending more of my time writing in either One Note or just a plain old notebook.

 Last month, I received the results of my NeuroPsych eval. While i do in fact have a high IQ, i also have a defect in my executive functioning which would explain all of the chaos of the last 20 years. I'm guessing that the root cause was either my attempt in 2008 or going off my medication back in 2016. Even though i quickly resumed my medication - The damage left over from the auditory hallucinations was rather difficult to handle and I'm still now - 9 years later - getting over the worst of the symptoms. While i had been using Smoking to cope with the symptoms... I've recently outgrown and matured out of the habit. As of today i am  60 days without a cigarette - and for frame of reference that's $903.00 not spent on cigarettes over the last 60 days. It's crazy how fast the savings adds up. I just have one vice left which i am hoping to eliminate by the end of the year as well. Sooner the better in my opinion because every time i partake it costs roughly $10.00. So saving $30.00 to $40.00 additional per week would be good for me. 

 

If you're interested in checking out my Book please see the link below.

 https://a.co/d/atGF2LB

 If you're interested in checking out my T-Shirt Store, please see the link below.

 https://ancientthinkers.etsy.com

 

I wish you all a great day, may it be filled with Joy and happiness.

Write more soon,

T.A. Michaels 

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