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A better outlook for the morning.

 The truth is... I'm worried about the future. It would seem like the end of my 3rd 13 year cycle is really more about closing one chapter and beginning to look towards a new future. I'm starting to think in terms of "Where do it want to be at 53?" The end of my 4th 13 year cycle. If I want to be in a position where i'm of sound mind and body... financially stable... and on solid ground... The changes need to be made today... rather than sometime off in the future. 

Over the last 13 years (My drinking years).... I've been in rough shape despite having some of the best opportunities presented to me. Drugs and Alcohol really do fuck a persons life up... No matter what age you start trying them. But... can a soul be redeemed from the darkness once it's gone down the downward spiral to the pit of depression and addiction? I don't know.... but to hell with waiting around for things to change on their own... If they are going to change... it's going to be because i make them change... not because God... if it exists... finds it in its good graces to bless me with more than it's already given me without real change. So... i set fourth... today... a Resolute vow... 

I will change my negative habits into positive habits, for the betterment of myself, my family, and my community. 

A. Taylor 

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