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Today is a good day.

So, for the last 24 hours or so my symptoms have been light. I think this has to do with the medication having a better effect on my mental health. The internal voices are lower than they had been and while external voices are still existent, I feel that I am getting a better handle on tuning them out.

Last night when my girlfriend got out of work, we went for a walk down a path near her house. We did about 2 miles on the walk as the weather was nicer than expected for the beginning of March. Afterwards we cooked dinner at her house where I ended up spending the night. We usually switch off nights between her house and my house. I was surprised because I only woke up once during the night and it was to use the bathroom. I had found that for the last week or so I had been waking up 3-4 times throughout the night. I don't know if it's a side effect of the medication or if it is just a restless sleep. I am hoping that by the end of next week I am sleeping soundly throughout the night. I have heard information about the "sleep bank" basically the number of hours one can actually sleep and that when the bank is full it makes it very difficult for someone to fall asleep and stay asleep. The other thing that I've taken into account is how vivid my dreams are. It's entirely possible the I'm waking up mid dream in order to shake off the vividness.

On the agenda today is cleaning my car. I want to take it to the car wash so that I can clean off the exterior as it's been a bit dirty this winter and it doesn't seem like we are going to be getting another snow storm before the season is over. I'm also going to clean out the inside of the car too. I feel that taking pride in ownership of the car will give me a small sense of Pride in my possessions. My car being my biggest expense and person possession right now. The check Engine light came on again. Second time in two months so I'm a little concerned about that. If it turns out to be the same thing then I want to talk to the mechanic to find out what's causing the valve to get stuck open. I wont be able to take it in until tomorrow so I am hoping that "Darkness" stays ok until it gets checked out.

It's early. Only 7:48am and I don't have anything on my agenda until 4:30pm today. So I want to make the best of a relaxing day.

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