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Day 87: Zero Alcohol

I woke up about a half hour ago. Overall last night went well. I am thinking we should have enough money to make all of the bills by the end of the month. It may take a few days to get ramped up to speed. But I feel the plan my wife and I have is solid. I will say though, at 3:46 making the rest of the day worth while seems like its going to take a bit of work. The first thing i can tell you is my mind doesn't have much internal chatter going on. Likely from exhaustion. But That's not necessarily a bad thing. I just hope that by the time i am ready to go to the gym tonight that the brain fog has passed and I'm ready to work out. 

My goal is 6 days per week... for about an hour each day. I'm shooting for somewhere between 8:00pm and 10:00pm. I am thinking 5-10 minute warm up, followed by 20-25 minute strength, and then 30 minutes of rowing...

 

... I feel a hell of a lot more awake now that I've gotten an Iced Coffee. I have three more days to smoke cigarettes. I feel that once i quit smoking cigarettes I'll naturally cut down on smoking Cannabis. Mainly because smoking cannabis leads to smoking cigarettes which leads to smoking more cannabis. I have 15 Step 1 patches, 14 Step 2 Patches, and 14 Step 3 Patches. So, in theory once i start with the patches on Friday, I'll have to buy one box of Step 1 patches in order to complete the process. The total patch kit is 56 days. 56 Days from this coming Friday is December 4th. So in theory I should be done with Cigarettes before the end of the year. Although... talking about cigarettes, kinda makes me want a cigarette. So i think there is still some work to be done.

Tonight should be a good night. Or at least that is the goal.  

Have a good afternoon everyone 

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