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Day 98: Zero Alcohol - Day 0: No Cannabis - Day 0: Zero Cigarettes.

So... Yesterdays goals failed miserably. So today I am starting fresh. My goal is to get a job in 30 days that has health insurance so that way I don't run out of my medication in November. The last thing we need is me completely out of my head because I the last time that happened I challenged Donald Trump to a dick measuring contest in Washington D.C. on Facebook Live (2017). So... rather than becoming an enemy of the state, I'd prefer to remain on my medication. But, the job hunt hasn't gone to well. I haven't had any leads lately and what I am finding is there is 100 applicants for the jobs I'm applying for. So what used to be a good job market has diminished entirely. So i am thinking about other industries i can get into. And not even on a tech level. More so thinking about trying to learn a trade. Tradesmen are in high demand. And it pays pretty well. So that might be the avenue I go down. In the mean time I'm going to continue Uber Driving so that the bills get paid. I am just shy of 300 more rides until i get Free Tuition at ASU via Uber and I think that might be part of my goal as well. I am planning on looking on the ASU Website to see what Online Courses they offer and see if there is anything that catches my eye. Part of me is thinking Addiction and Drug abuse counseling. It would be a four year degree.... but Not only would it help me become clean in the process by learning the psychology behind it... but also i could give back to those therapists who have helped me over the years. And if not counseling itself... than some variant of. 

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