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Day 88: Zero Alcohol

It's Wednesday. I got up a couple of hours ago. When I got up I went to get a coffee, Gas, and came back home to shower. When i weighed myself today i clocked in at 220.6lbs. It's my lowest weight since the start of the pandemic. And it's down nearly 50lbs since my high of 269.8lbs at the end of 2021. Trust me - you don't want to be 270lbs and 5'7 3/4". No one does. I'm optimistic that things will work out. Right now we have 13 days to make rent and we have to pay our cell phone, car payments, and insurance payments in the next 13 days too. With any luck it will work out. If not - We are definitely moving as soon as possible. I won't know until the 20th. 

I found that driving for Uber I am averaging about $240 a night... Minus $40 for gas.... and another $10 for coffee, red bull, and Misc supplies... It's about $190 a night... Multiply that by 13 days and it's $2470.... figure that my wife earns about $120 a day.... and she's planning on working 10 of the next 13 days and its $1200.... So... In theory we should have $3670 by the 20th. So Minus of rent $1400.... the two cars $517 & $400, Cell phone $310, and insurance $250... we should make it to the 20th with about $800 left over. Currently we have $150 bucks.... so it's Definitely possible.... it just means long nights working for the next 13 days. What I'm really hoping for is that Friday and Saturday nights are higher earning nights as demand will be higher. Same goes for next Friday and Saturday. 

Our 4 year anniversary is this Sunday. Originally I had wanted to do something special, But i don't know if it will be possible. I think money is just too tight right now to be able to do anything worth while. 

Today is day 88 without Alcohol. And in two days I am quitting Nicotine (I've decided on Nicotine over cannabis). I smoked my last cigarette around 4:00pm this afternoon. Now i am down to my other nicotine products (About 21 pouched of Zyn + the one i am currently using). I feel that once i complete the Zyn's at some point tomorrow - I am going to put the nicotine patch on and start the program. I figure it will probably be around midnight tomorrow night (Thursday night / Friday Morning) So in theory - I should quit smoking cigarettes around the same time i reach the 90 day sober mark. 

The reason i decided on giving up Nicotine rather than Cannabis is due to several factors. First.... i can't smoke cannabis on Days I am working... and If i am planning on working for 13 days straight then i wont be smoking anways. Second.... no one wants to smell cigarettes in their Uber... so by quitting Nicotine that wont be a factor. Lastly.... on the one day that i do end up smoking cannabis.... It will be an enjoyable relaxing experience.... as long as I'm not chain smoking cigarettes at the same time. I've restarted Get High R.I. .com at the thought that maybe i can do something with it. While cannabis isn't a million dollar idea. If i can get others to assist with reviews and other things... it would be worth the effort put into it. Even if it does just become a hobby.  

 

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