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Day 19: Zero Alcohol

Its been quite a few days with mild reflection on recent events. I haven't ended up quitting smoking yet, but i feel like im inching closer to pulling the trigger on quitting Cigarettes for good. The cost of a pack of Marlboro's has exceeded $16.50 at most stores in Rhode Island and that is directly online with minimum wage. While it wouldn't be a problem if I only smoked when I drank (which im no longer drinking) The problem becomes the days I buy two packs of cigarettes. (Or more). Spending $33 dollars... or spending $48.50 on cigarettes in a single day is unreasonable and ultimately where I need to draw the line. Which i feel is what is prompting me to quit sooner than later. If for nothing else than the cost savings. 

Things at work haven't been that great lately. The monday before my vacation one of my coworkers called me a Fag. (It doesnt mean you like men, it just means your weak - paraphrasing his words of course). And yesterday when onsite at a client's location a different coworker said "Adam isnt dangerous, his eyes just make him look dangerous." Overall its disheartening because im stuck between a rock and a hard place. I need the job or else we go homeless... but im being mistreated so I dont want to be here. My only hope is that either there is a round of layoffs that forces out people out... or i luck myself into an instant job where I dont have to deal with this type of discrimination.

Im thinking about revising my book and republish it, as well as getting one of my clothing stores back up and running. I realize it might not be a million dollar venture, but if i could generate enough money through passive income, I could atleast afford the pay cut and move into a job with less stress and not as much hate from Gen-X and Baby Boomer Coworkers. 

We have a scheduled appointment for Ash and Matchy on August 29th. Originally I has scheduled one for August 8th but it got canceled. They need their ears checked for ear mites. Whether or not they have them im not sure... but I want them checked out just in case. 

This coming weekend I believe my wife and I are relaxing Friday night and watching movies. Saturday during the day I'll be Uber driving for 8 to 12 hours. At night we are likely going over friends, and on Sunday I'll be Uber driving for an additional 8-12 hours. I have to clean my car first thing Saturday morning (or early Friday night) so that it is prepped for Ubering. 

Ill write more as time permits. 

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