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Day 8: Zero Alcohol

Im currently sitting outside my Therapists office for a 1pm appointment. It sure has been a hell of a month. I usually see him once a month on Saturdays. Its usually more of a venting session than anything going else but he does provide some useful information. After therapy today I have to hit the bank to deposit some cash, then after that head home. I want to wash my car today so I may fit that in later this afternoon. Tonight, my wife and I are going to go visit some friends. I start my vacation Monday so that is what I am looking forward to. 

On my vacation, Tuesday I am going to register my car finally, and on Wednesday I think I am going to get lunch with my father. I probably mentioned this previously but hes about 14 years into a Parkinsons diagnosis so its not always that easy seeing him, but i want to because there wont be to many days left that I can see him without him being to mentally disabled to enjoy it. Thursday I am going with my wife down to my uncle's to go swimming. Friday I am getting a haircut for the first time in a while... and other than that my week is pretty open. My goal is to stay out of the bar. Generally when I have a lot of free time I could be found drinking any sort of alcoholic beverage but that is not how I want to spend my vacation. If given the chance, id go far from the bar and get into the mountains for a few days, but i just dont see that being in the cards. Maybe next year.

My main goal is registering my car. I put it off for nearly 3 months and have a hard deadline for this Tuesday. Once the car is registered I can get it inspected, and once its inspected I can start Uber driving. I figure ill Uber drive Saturdays and Sundays with a goal of $150/day. Thats $300/week and because i can Uber drive 3 weeks a month (because im On-Call at work a week out of the month) that should be $900 a month... figure my car is $517, Katie's car is $200, and our insurance is $200... i should be covering all of the car bills from Uber driving every month. And while $900 is roughly an extra paycheck every month... i know its just a small step in the whole process of getting out of debt.

My wife and I decided we are going to renew the lease (if they let us) and stay another year. While it might be tough with three cats, I feel if we wait the extra year we will be in a position to get a better place rather than trying to rush everything this year. Personally id prefer to rent a house or a 2 bedroom apartment but the high cost of housing in Rhode island either means i need to find additional income sources for Katie and I... or I need to pay down some of my debts. As it stands... im out laying about $1,000 a month on personal debts trying to pay off a $32,000 balance on something. Once the money is freed up we will be in a much better position. But the only thing that is going to dig us out of our hole is time and an increase in income. So, i got the weed blog, Uber driving, and my day job, while my wife has instacart, and a survey app. Here's hoping it all works out for the best. Im gonna smoke a cigarette and then head into the therapy appointment.

Here's to day 8


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